I’ve heard this saying my entire life and today it’s really bothering me.  What a totally negative, rotten thing to believe!  Why should all good things come to an end?  Says who?  Why would I want to believe this?  Well, I don’t!

I’m pondering my last full day of freedom, as I plan my return to my job tomorrow morning after a 6 week medical leave.  Yes, I feel like my world is crashing in on me and that these seemingly endless days of carefree, do what I want when I want, loving life are over.  So I’m trying to balance this with the reality that I prefer, which is to make the most of what I have.  So…I must return to the office tomorrow, now how do I turn this into a good thing?  Well, I love my co-workers, I love our sunny location on the river, I am ever grateful for the respect with which I am treated at all times.  I am also grateful for the medical benefits and income that allowed me to live a completely stress free life for these past 6 weeks.

So, how about new beginnings instead of good things ending?  What have I learned about my life during these 6 weeks?  More than I really imagined, it turns out.  As I think about my days of freedom, I know in my heart that I lived each day to it’s fullest.  Every single morning, I awoke to a deep feeling of gratitude.  I thanked the universe for every blessed day that I had.  Yea, sure I went to radiation every single day of these 6 weeks, but turns out I was grateful even for that.  Grateful for the technology and advancements that make it possible for me to be alive today.  Grateful for a healthcare system called Legacy, in which all the providers took the gentlest, kindest, most thorough care of me.  Grateful for a powerful radiation machine manufactured probably somewhere in Germany, that moved around my body every morning zapping those hideous cancer creepies.

So today I ponder, how can I ensure that the good things I lived for these 6weeks do NOT come to an end?  My outlook on life…my appreciation of each moment…my piercing awareness of those around me…my burning desire to do something every single day that makes a difference.  My mission, then, is to hold on to all of this as I move on to yet another phase of this wild and precious life.  To anchor these feeling deep within my core so that I do not waste a single moment.  And the life lesson that no matter what you do in this world…do it to the absolute best of your abilities.  Because we truly have an impact on those around us, even though we may not realize it.  We make a difference in each others lives simply by being!

So this morning I have flipped the switch on my mindset.  I nearly began this morning with sadness and with feelings of emptiness about what tomorrow holds for me.  And now, I’m feeling more inspired than before.  More driven to make the most and to decide for myself what really matters to me.  And then — to go out and make it happen.  I “see” it…I “feel” it…the universe is clear on my intentions.  Now it’s time to deliver!

I am living every single day as if someone left the gate open!  My hair blowing in the breeze (once it grows back!), my feet rarely touching the ground, my heart wide open to embrace the life around me, my vision soaring to the mountains and to the wisdom I find in nature.  Leave behind all that no longer serves me and create a new freedom born of trust in the universe and belief in my power to impact my reality.

I really really like these new happy beginnings!  And afterall, endings are seriously just new beginnings, are they not?